Saturday, January 22, 2011

My Other Half


Let me take you to the 90s where everything was easier. This post today is gonna be about me and my best friend. There's a reason why I put that picture up on the first place. That picture explains that they're taking care of each other and I guess that is what friendship about. Love and care. Yeap! no doubt!

When I was still in the kindergarten, where you can see innocent faces and lollies were so important for them and ironically, that made them happy. That's when my friendship starts. I have been knowing my best friend for more than 15 years. How crazy is that? We've been through ups and downs, separations, fights and we kiss and we make up. For me, she is everything. She is more than just a best friend to me. She is like my sister, my soulmate and more importantly, she is my person! Do you know how rare to find a person that knows you better than you know yourself? Do you know how difficult it is to find someone that means so much to you and yet you still with this someone? I just wanna say that I am insanely thankful to have her as my best friend!


Leaving my best friend for overseas, I found that this was what I felt when I began to miss her. Knowing that I only get to spend a couple of weeks a year with her.

So here I am, I wrote a poem for you :)



As childhood friends, we grew up together

Swearing to be friends forever and ever

Sometimes we would argue and fight

Other times we would laugh and stay up all night


We went from playing with games and toys

To talking and dreaming about different boys

My thoughts and feelings, to you I would confide

Never having anything to hide


Best Friends we do remain

Things changing and things staying the same

To each other we still listen and share

About each other, we will always care


Dear within

the memories they caress with sorrow

And gather them today

for what may come of tomorrow

Priceless

Priceless ever are these moments that we spend with those so dear


The distance between you and I

Is only a heartbeat away

For you and I dwell in each other's heart

There forever we will stay


You know all my emotions

Many they may be

You know when to be gentle

And when to chastise me


When troubles come a callin

As those gremlins often do

And my spirit keeps on fallin

Till I feel low down and blue


When I look around for comfort

Someone quickly jumps to mind

One who always will support me

And whose words are always kind


Who will make my mood feel lighter

Who’ll help beat my troubles back

Who helps the road seem straighter

And helps me get around each bend

Who makes each day seem greater


Very soon we'll be as one

Together as we once had been

Filling our memory boxes

For another year of being unseen














Sunday, January 17, 2010

My Own Script

another year has come and gone
so many lessons were there to learn
and some of them again I missed
and here another year comes a new
torn between the two
i fight on and on and on
every day with my own self
to keep my sanity and live another day
defeated and beaten down to earth
but only I can pick me up
to start again to make new strides
in this fleeting days of illusion
i must stand for myself to live
and though I may have failed before
i will try some more .. again and again
to learn to overcome the lower self
and passions of the mind I bear
of anger, lust and vanity
of attachment and even greed
no one says that
its easy to deal with the unexpected
especially when bad memories linger everywhere
they are killing you softly
in a world full of lies and deceit
where people change alliances at a drop of a coin
sometimes there is a window of hope
that all is not lost after all
as the year comes to a new beginning
i try not to go back to where i began
a brand new year and a fresh new start
to rewrite the script with my own plan



J.AV

Thursday, November 19, 2009

don't fight but deal ..

i often wonder why
things seem to remain the same
every step I take
brings me closer to the same
night beckons me
i stay up wide awake and weary
hoping for a change for the better or worse
as long as it's not too adverse
life is bland
when we don't understand
God's command that we need to withstand
who knows life
and sometimes they call it as a game
where we are and from where we came
everyone differs and no one is same
fighting for money and mortal name
fihgting for power and love
soul holds the memories in the frame
few love everything and few hardly tame
who has understood such is the game
it is obvious that problems often intervene in life
problems are the beginning of worth-while life
don't fight a fact but deal with it
nobody can go back and start a new beginning
but anyone can start today and make a new ending
moreover it's better to learn early than late
and braze yourself for this fate
that life is to be lone lead
no matter how many have otherwise said
many have gone and many came
don't ever trust completely
and give away your heart and soul
for truth someday
you are bound to see
but then,
nothing can you control



J.A.V

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

a song to choose

come from a turbulent past
the fate is now placed in your hands
the unknown future awaits
as it does
for foolish few who dare
leave behind what you comprehend
know for now without doubt
for life can lead in many ways
often now undesired
fate can deal a cruel hand sometimes
but we play on cold and tired
rain softly fallin down
each drop a symphony of sound
it is your choice of what rhythm is going to be
the decision is yours
as it for life
there are some moments
that you wanted to change to be a better one
unfortunately you cant turn back time
there must be some things that you regret
there must be some bitter endings
which u don't expect
some pains that you made that cannot be undo
and for all those reasons
how you wish you can do all over again
when life gets much harder
it will make u stronger
don't regret of what u've done
cos it don't make any difference
you have and own the life you're given

Saturday, October 24, 2009

What worries you .. masters you ..


worry is something that disturbs the peace of mind
worry is interest paid on trouble before it is due
afflicts with mental agitation or distress
describe the indomitable state of mind
things that are aversely happening 
in life against the will
worry is a thin stream of fear trickling through the mind
if encouraged
it cuts a channel into which all other thoughts are drained 
many of you may worry about 2 things 
that are yesterday and tomorrow
worry a little bit every day 
and in a lifetime you will lose a couple of years
if something is wrong
fix it if you can
but 
train yourself not to worry
cos
worry never fixes anything
and yet 
anxiety does not empty tomorrow of its sorrows
but only empties today of its strength
do not anticipate trouble
or worry about what may never happen
because
the greatest part of our happiness depends on our dispositions
not our circumstances




J.A.V

Friday, October 23, 2009

romance blossomed


tonight is calm and clear
and I am thinking of someone dear
I look into the night sky
and try to realize why I want to cry
the stars are crisp and bright
i wonder if you are thinking of me tonight 
there is a summer night to remember 
there were times for me and you 
we were laughing together 
as the fire of love burned between us 
please do not fade your sight on me
i've memorized the music of melancholy and life
let the sun refuse to rise
let not morning arrive soon
for every moment I take
all reasons have been truthful
there and from 
my heart has spoken words that are true
from there where we shall meet 
I endorse solitude of hearts
made warm romance and forgotten the past
in sweet dilemma and crucial mistakes
may we always stride this way and never cross apart
i'm planting faith into your heart and it will bloom well
in places where our eyes would speak solemnly
but our hearts carried the lights beyond any spell




J.A.V

Thursday, October 22, 2009

call yourself a fool when it comes to love ..


what is this magical bond we share?
amidst the constant circus like avalanche of words,
how did you know?
faithful to uncertainty
a spirit yearning to be free
his subtle words lodge in my thought ..
is it possible that a simple innocent radiant smile
or a crazy serendipitous verse
could bring two people so diverse
to where we find ourselves today?
strangers once to our own lives
at ease with the depth of our own emptiness,
how unlikely it is that we are here ..
the kind of night you wish you were with the one you love
nestled close to the open fire
watching the moon duck in and out of the white cotton clouds
caressing and holding each other gently
breath silently quivering collect
how i wish you were here 
right now .. 
Feelings and emotions stir
Disguised by layers of pain and ruin
Two hearts awaken
A gentle, loving, knowing kiss
Bound together forever ..



J.A.V

Monday, October 12, 2009

love and life are easily perceived ..

dear all bloggers who are falling in love ,

maybe sometimes people are right about happiness .. especially when you are falling in love .. 
when you are falling in love so deeply, you hardly remember what sadness is .. 
for these past 4 months, i feel happiness continuously and I thank God for it .. 
i'm so grateful for what i have now.. my family, my friends and especially for my special one, dendi ..
i don't know why .. this time i feel so different .. it's just not the same like i felt before .. it's like everything seems fall into the right place .. 

well ... i do admit in every relationship there must be problems that you have to accept and face it .. 
however i do believe that problems mean nothing as compare as the faith and trust of love that you have ..  
sometimes talking is way easier rather than doing it .. hmmm .. but you know .. the power of love *wow* is really helping you if you have an internal problem in your relationship .. i say this not just by saying it but it happened to me .. perhaps, it applies to you guyz as well :) 

does anyone still watch fairy-tales movies here ?? like Barbie ..?? 
well i will be the one who put my hand up high .. :P 
if you watch Barbie , the ending is always an happy ending .. but that is not my point .. this movie shows me that problems are not a big deal if you work it out together and turns out to be true .. mysteries make you curious but yet make you reach your depressions .. but hang on a second guyz , is problem suppose to put you down? or is it the reverse?? the answer is yours .. 

there go my points . . 
for me now , i feel so happy because obviously im falling in love .. but i know it won't last forever cos life has it's own upturn and downturn .. we can't be in the top position forever, can we? 
actually love and life are easily perceived as long as we understand the purpose and the concept of them .. 

hmm .. i think it's time for me to log off this blog cos i have to do the stupid assignment from uni .. 
*E.M.E.R.G.E.N.C.Y* somebody call my momma .. LOL ..

so goodluck guyz ^^


enjoy your day people .. 



GOD bless ..


Joanna 

Saturday, October 10, 2009

this message is meant for people who reach their lowest low right now because of others ..

dear all people whoever you are out there ,

today is 11 of october 2009 .. there were many things happened before this day ..
can someone tell me how does it feel when you hear something or lets say , how do you feel when you know that people talk shit behind you when you are not ? 
or how does it feel to be blame when you do not do anything like ppl think?
well let says, most of you once been in that situation before .. and i guess its not easy to be in that kind of position.. 

mistakes are common to human being .. old or young, men or women , teenagers or kids .. people do mistakes and there are times you want to turn back time just to prevent that mistakes .. 
talking about people or in other words, gossiping is not bad but somehow, you have to watch what words are going to be delivered .. these days, there are many people backstabbing or cheating behind you .. you will never know who they are until you face it yourselves ..

i dont understand why people like to talk bad stuffs behind it .. in my mind, what is the advantage of it? will it benefit you?? and i dont really get it why people are so eager to talk something that arent their stuffs .. talk about personal life of others .. talk about non-personal life of others .. well i do understand that people like to talk about others but with one condition, IF ONLY YOU KNOW THEM .. but how if not?? is it just for the fun of it ?? or is it interesting ..?? 

i do admit that talking is fun .. and i do admit that gossiping is fun as well .. back then im one of them .. but since i grown up .. everything has changed .. ive learned one thing, there is no benefit at all to talk shit of others cos if you dont want people to talk nasty things about you then you DO NOT need to talk like that .. sometimes i feel uneasy of those things that happen around me .. either it my friends or "friends" .. 

there is one thing that i want to state about this note .. NEVER trust people so easily .. cos trust is a big word to say and to do .. you've gotta sure that the person you trust is a worthy person .. because you know, in these days, people are so good in acting .. they can pretend as much as they want to .. you never know what's in their minds .. 

and yea .. for those people who always talk shit about others .. i once think, why dont they just get themselves a mirror and look at themselves .. have they ONCE make a MISTAKE in their life? are they PERFECT ?? if they think so .. GO AHEAD ppl .. 
however, i believe that each person in this world .. whoever they are .. wherever they are .. they MUST be done mistakes in their life .. big or small .. it doesnt matter .. 

for people out there who reach their lowest low just because of "those people" .. CHEER UP .. dont be sad .. let them know who you are .. i mean the real you .. i suggest you .. not to give a damn care about it .. cos you know why ?? they DONT deserve your concern .. they DONT deserve your thoughts .. they DONT deserve your tears .. just dont give a shit of it people .. as in i say , only people who knows you well are the one who respect you and understand who you are .. 

and i will end this note by saying, 
dont give up of somethings that arent worth it at all .. REMEMBER , you are who you are .. if people still continue talking shit behind you .. say to them " GO AHEAD .. TALK AS MUCH AS YOU WANT TO COS I DONT GIVE A DAMN CARE ABOUT IT " .. just let people who know you really well, judge you .. NOT them .. 


so .. good luck people .. dont let them bring your days down .. cos they dont know what they are doing right now .. i bet they will regret it after all .. just believe in yourself, that you are a great and extra-ordinary person .. :)


God bless 




Joanna -

Friday, October 9, 2009

dedicate for people who feel that they aren't being themselves or not being satisfy of what they have ..

different, yes I am always listening to my jam 
stare at me if you want 
go ahead you can even taunt cause i don't care what other think styles are never, 
ever written in ink so be yourself 
don't sit on the shelf 
dance to your own beat you can make it quite a feat 
you can be whatever you want to be 
I hope you too can see 
cliques aren't 'cool' 
they will never rule 
sometimes they can be cruel so don't stop and stare a drool so be yourself 
don't sit on the shelf 
cut it off like a knife 
and live your life!  


Joanna -