What worries you .. masters you ..

worry is something that disturbs the peace of mind

worry is interest paid on trouble before it is due

afflicts with mental agitation or distress

describe the indomitable state of mind

things that are aversely happening 

in life against the will

worry is a thin stream of fear trickling through the mind

if encouraged

it cuts a channel into which all other thoughts are drained 

many of you may worry about 2 things 

that are yesterday and tomorrow

worry a little bit every day 

and in a lifetime you will lose a couple of years

if something is wrong

fix it if you can

but 

train yourself not to worry

cos

worry never fixes anything

and yet 

anxiety does not empty tomorrow of its sorrows

but only empties today of its strength

do not anticipate trouble

or worry about what may never happen

because

the greatest part of our happiness depends on our dispositions

not our circumstances

J.A.V

romance blossomed

tonight is calm and clear

and I am thinking of someone dear

I look into the night sky

and try to realize why I want to cry

the stars are crisp and bright

i wonder if you are thinking of me tonight 

there is a summer night to remember 

there were times for me and you 

we were laughing together 

as the fire of love burned between us 

please do not fade your sight on me

i've memorized the music of melancholy and life

let the sun refuse to rise

let not morning arrive soon

for every moment I take

all reasons have been truthful

there and from 

my heart has spoken words that are true

from there where we shall meet 

I endorse solitude of hearts

made warm romance and forgotten the past

in sweet dilemma and crucial mistakes

may we always stride this way and never cross apart

i'm planting faith into your heart and it will bloom well

in places where our eyes would speak solemnly

but our hearts carried the lights beyond any spell

J.A.V

call yourself a fool when it comes to love ..

what is this magical bond we share?

amidst the constant circus like avalanche of words,
how did you know?
faithful to uncertainty
a spirit yearning to be free
his subtle words lodge in my thought ..
is it possible that a simple innocent radiant smile
or a crazy serendipitous verse
could bring two people so diverse
to where we find ourselves today?
strangers once to our own lives
at ease with the depth of our own emptiness,
how unlikely it is that we are here ..
the kind of night you wish you were with the one you love
nestled close to the open fire
watching the moon duck in and out of the white cotton clouds
caressing and holding each other gently
breath silently quivering collect

how i wish you were here 

right now .. 

Feelings and emotions stir
Disguised by layers of pain and ruin
Two hearts awaken
A gentle, loving, knowing kiss
Bound together forever ..

J.A.V

love and life are easily perceived ..

dear all bloggers who are falling in love ,

maybe sometimes people are right about happiness .. especially when you are falling in love .. 

when you are falling in love so deeply, you hardly remember what sadness is .. 

for these past 4 months, i feel happiness continuously and I thank God for it .. 

i'm so grateful for what i have now.. my family, my friends and especially for my special one, dendi ..

i don't know why .. this time i feel so different .. it's just not the same like i felt before .. it's like everything seems fall into the right place .. 

well ... i do admit in every relationship there must be problems that you have to accept and face it .. 

however i do believe that problems mean nothing as compare as the faith and trust of love that you have ..  

sometimes talking is way easier rather than doing it .. hmmm .. but you know .. the power of love *wow* is really helping you if you have an internal problem in your relationship .. i say this not just by saying it but it happened to me .. perhaps, it applies to you guyz as well :) 

does anyone still watch fairy-tales movies here ?? like Barbie ..?? 

well i will be the one who put my hand up high .. :P 

if you watch Barbie , the ending is always an happy ending .. but that is not my point .. this movie shows me that problems are not a big deal if you work it out together and turns out to be true .. mysteries make you curious but yet make you reach your depressions .. but hang on a second guyz , is problem suppose to put you down? or is it the reverse?? the answer is yours .. 

there go my points . . 

for me now , i feel so happy because obviously im falling in love .. but i know it won't last forever cos life has it's own upturn and downturn .. we can't be in the top position forever, can we? 

actually love and life are easily perceived as long as we understand the purpose and the concept of them .. 

hmm .. i think it's time for me to log off this blog cos i have to do the stupid assignment from uni .. 

*E.M.E.R.G.E.N.C.Y* somebody call my momma .. LOL ..

so goodluck guyz ^^

enjoy your day people .. 

GOD bless ..

Joanna 

this message is meant for people who reach their lowest low right now because of others ..

dear all people whoever you are out there ,

today is 11 of october 2009 .. there were many things happened before this day ..
can someone tell me how does it feel when you hear something or lets say , how do you feel when you know that people talk shit behind you when you are not ? 
or how does it feel to be blame when you do not do anything like ppl think?
well let says, most of you once been in that situation before .. and i guess its not easy to be in that kind of position.. 

mistakes are common to human being .. old or young, men or women , teenagers or kids .. people do mistakes and there are times you want to turn back time just to prevent that mistakes .. 
talking about people or in other words, gossiping is not bad but somehow, you have to watch what words are going to be delivered .. these days, there are many people backstabbing or cheating behind you .. you will never know who they are until you face it yourselves ..

i dont understand why people like to talk bad stuffs behind it .. in my mind, what is the advantage of it? will it benefit you?? and i dont really get it why people are so eager to talk something that arent their stuffs .. talk about personal life of others .. talk about non-personal life of others .. well i do understand that people like to talk about others but with one condition, IF ONLY YOU KNOW THEM .. but how if not?? is it just for the fun of it ?? or is it interesting ..?? 

i do admit that talking is fun .. and i do admit that gossiping is fun as well .. back then im one of them .. but since i grown up .. everything has changed .. ive learned one thing, there is no benefit at all to talk shit of others cos if you dont want people to talk nasty things about you then you DO NOT need to talk like that .. sometimes i feel uneasy of those things that happen around me .. either it my friends or "friends" .. 

there is one thing that i want to state about this note .. NEVER trust people so easily .. cos trust is a big word to say and to do .. you've gotta sure that the person you trust is a worthy person .. because you know, in these days, people are so good in acting .. they can pretend as much as they want to .. you never know what's in their minds .. 

and yea .. for those people who always talk shit about others .. i once think, why dont they just get themselves a mirror and look at themselves .. have they ONCE make a MISTAKE in their life? are they PERFECT ?? if they think so .. GO AHEAD ppl .. 
however, i believe that each person in this world .. whoever they are .. wherever they are .. they MUST be done mistakes in their life .. big or small .. it doesnt matter .. 

for people out there who reach their lowest low just because of "those people" .. CHEER UP .. dont be sad .. let them know who you are .. i mean the real you .. i suggest you .. not to give a damn care about it .. cos you know why ?? they DONT deserve your concern .. they DONT deserve your thoughts .. they DONT deserve your tears .. just dont give a shit of it people .. as in i say , only people who knows you well are the one who respect you and understand who you are .. 

and i will end this note by saying, 
dont give up of somethings that arent worth it at all .. REMEMBER , you are who you are .. if people still continue talking shit behind you .. say to them " GO AHEAD .. TALK AS MUCH AS YOU WANT TO COS I DONT GIVE A DAMN CARE ABOUT IT " .. just let people who know you really well, judge you .. NOT them .. 


so .. good luck people .. dont let them bring your days down .. cos they dont know what they are doing right now .. i bet they will regret it after all .. just believe in yourself, that you are a great and extra-ordinary person .. :)


God bless 




Joanna -

dedicate for people who feel that they aren't being themselves or not being satisfy of what they have ..

different, yes I am always listening to my jam 

stare at me if you want 

go ahead you can even taunt cause i don't care what other think styles are never, 

ever written in ink so be yourself 

don't sit on the shelf 

dance to your own beat you can make it quite a feat 

you can be whatever you want to be 

I hope you too can see 

cliques aren't 'cool' 

they will never rule 

sometimes they can be cruel so don't stop and stare a drool so be yourself 

don't sit on the shelf 

cut it off like a knife 

and live your life!  

Joanna -

Can't Turn Back Time - Reminiscing

everyone tells you
they're the best years of your life
the thing they don't tell you
is they are all full of strife
from a child to a teen
in less then a year
it's a lot to deal with ..
teen life 
is something you have to deal with
is something that you have to overcome
the war is against yourselves ..
a child has no worries
a teen has plenty
you've learnt the meaning of love
you've discovered broken hearts
the worries of being accepted
are the hardest part of all ..
time creates all moments
time modifies all questions
time answers all the miseries
then .. 
have you ever wondered 
what life would be like with that person you have lost in your life 
and said to your self things would be different if that person was still here?
have you ever wondered 
what it would be like if you can go back a change the things you have done 
and hope that it wouldn't be like it is now?
too many questions that ended with a big question mark ..
it seems or so people say,
the moment we are born
our fate is already etched on to our foreheads 
a moment when you left still visible
but it's just you can't have them back 

everything is beyond waving goodbye ..

Joanna

This is dedicated to everyone who has something in their mind - particularly in PROBLEMS ..

tonight 
as the time goes by 
im so thankful to God 
that i've become what i am now ..
there was a time 
i spent all my night 
praying for something that i wish to have for
praying for something that i really desire to be with 
God didn't grant my wish
but i guess,
He know what he's doing after all ..
i'm siting right here in my room 
in silence and no one's here 
im thinking how dumb i was before 
but it's pointless to regret of something that had been done 
however,
i'm gleefully happy with my situation right now ..
that's why ,
i thank God for everything that He has done for me
i thank God for the unanswered prayers
and there's a crucial point ,
when He don't answer my prayer ,
it doesn't mean he don't care ..
it means He has an incredible plan for me ..
it's just I have to wait ..
tonight 
i want to share something with all of you people out there 
who have problems , sadness or disappointments ..
sometimes,
problems bring positive changes to your life 
it's just a matter of your decision 
a little decision can change every single thing in your life 
for people out there who have broken hearts right now,
cheer up and don't be sad ..
A broken heart is not the end of the world
just believe , somehow .. some day .
there must be a right person for you to live with ..
for people out there who are falling in love,
appreciate your partner and treat them with tender and care ..
for people out there who have problems with parents ,
be thankful for that ,
cos at that moment,
God just want to show you how much they love you ..
for people out there who have problems with friendships,
praise the lord,
cos God is trying to let you know ,
whoever your "best friend" is ,
is not a good friend that you have to keep for and it's worthless ..
live the life to the fullest 
live the life with 3 simple words and that are " thank you, God"
be grateful of every single moment in your life for each day 
cos those moments mean something special 
that you will never know until you regret it !


Joanna-

love is all around

love is a state of mind
a puzzle made by pieces you can't find
it's written in the history of life 
like memories you can't erase 
love is merely madness
it may be the case 
that a person may be able 
to find love more than once in his or her life
and the person settles with the one 
who is best and compatible amongst all ..
we come to love not by finding a perfect person
but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly
alone they are two
together they are one 
there are no boundaries or barriers 
if two people are destined to be together 
that kind of selfless love has an incredible power ..
in true love the smallest distance is too great
and the greatest distance can be bridged 
when distance lies between lovers 
it will turn up to be the fire of love
love is missing someone whenever you're apart
but somehow feeling warm inside 
because you're close in heart ..
in the arithmetic of love
one plus one equals everything
and two minus one equals nothing 
life has taught us 
that love does not consist in gazing at each other 
but in looking outward together in the same direction ..




Joanna-

Questions of Trust

why does your heart grow doubtful?
tense and beating
full of fear
somehow i know that trust will save me 
but 
to trust someone is based on your clarity of judgement
and it's not easy to do it ..
trust is being earn and lost
do you earn it ?
If trust is lost, will you ever get it back?
will you ever be close to that person again?
it will be never be the same as before ..
how can you trust someone if that someone has broken your trust? 
it feels like heart is empty ..
you have to work for your trust 
with the person that make you lost the trust
you have to make that person understand
why should you ever trust that person again 
you have to repair that broken trust ..
trust can be lost yet regained
once lost
it is hard to regain trust
trust is something that should not be abused or betrayed
trust is a feeling
thats always worth achieving ..
maybe
the past made you not to trust completely
wasn't able to trust anybody fully
thought that you wouldn't allow yourself to get hurt anymore
but that all changed when you knocked
and although you know your partner is true
even to your lover u decreasingly trust
but you will never know the price to pay ..
trust is a word but has a deep meaning
trust is received then slowly deceived 
with something as fragile as trust
once its broken
it takes awhile to rebuild
then questions are all around 
is this trust coming from something more sinister or is it genuine? 
how do you choose? 
who could you trust in your greatest moment in need? 
who will be worthy of having your trust? 
will you be able to confide your trust among certain people? 
all i can say ....
think twice before you act 
cos 
there's no point of regretting of what had done ...



Joanna -