Ex-Best Friend

i never understand these days
there's a lot of people changed
from a bad person to be a better person
from a nice person turn to be hypocrite person
from an arrogant person changed to be a social person
you never realized when the people changed 
until you noticed something's different than usual ..
some people changed for the power
some people changed for the lover
some people changed for the success
some people changed for fortune
some people changed for a game of life
some people changed because of others
some people changed because of jealousy
some people changed because of ambitions
and i cant ever insist people to be a better person
if he/she doesnt want to ..
i used to have a best friend
that i considered her as my family
laughed and cried together
been in primary to high school together
never had separation ..
but until one day,
everything was screwed up 
no more friendship
no more laughter
no more happiness
all we had were madness and sorrow
when i sit alone and staring of all photos that i had
photos of me and her
that we used to have it before ..
i cried ..
i couldn't imagine 
how separation could happened between these 2 girls ..
to be honest,
i miss those times ..
but she said , " we need time for that "
then i said, " yap .. true! " 
since then,
she's gone ..
maybe she never think of this
maybe she never remember of those times
or even maybe she would never consider me as best friend
as i said before,
i will never insist someone to change ..
if she wants to change ,
she will be change for herself ..
for her own sake not because of someone-else ..
from this simple note,
i want to tell her ..
how much i miss her
how much i miss those times 
how much i miss everything about her
in every single step she took with me before
i miss all of that .. 
maybe someday,
you'll know how it feels to be left out by a best friend ..



Joanna -