Unfair....

i feel something happening these days
something's not right 
something strange that lies between us
i've been keeping this since few weeks ago
couldn't tell cos i wasn't sure
but sooner or later
i have to get things right into the place ..
but now i can tell,
that it might be the goodbye ..
i was down on my knees
pray to someone who create this universe
to give and show me ways 
well .. i guess ..
this is it ..
i can see on that day
he act out 
seemed not to care
seemed nothing happened
argued 
fierce
madness
fear 
all of them were mix together
that complete my night "wonderfully" ..
woke up in the morning 
thought i was going to have a great day
and i was totally wrong
i had to accept reality 
i had to face the truth 
that not everything would go as i want to
that not everything would go smooth as i thought before
that i couldn't have everything in a time ..
i can't hardly believe
i felt the same feelings again
i can't hardly think
i was in the same position
and i can't believe 
that i have to repeat the same story ..
last night i screamed to God
and asked a simple question,
" why did u take people that i love one by one? "
can anyone raise their hand up 
and give me an answer ..?
here comes the start of the sleepless night
here comes the pain
here comes me wishing things had never changed
i can hear him says I love you like it was yesterday
and I can see it written on his face 
that he had never felt this way ..
but why did things go like this ?
why does it have to go from good to gone?
It is unfair 
and i dont feel fair for myself ..




Joanna -