for those who confuse

if i were permitted to ask God ,
i would ask a question like this ..
" God , why there should be love between adam and eve in this world? "
and if were permitted again to ask God 
i would ask a question like this ..
" God , if you had created a feeling like love , why there should be pain ? "




you know .. sometimes i'm thinking , how stupid we are .. you know when you are faliing in love deeply and then they break your heart instantly into pieces but we still love them .. or maybe they did painful things towards our heart then we are insited to dumb our feelings? 
maybe in one time , you said that you hate them .. but in some other time , when you look through your photos that you keep or maybe when you meet them or when you text them .. whatsoever .. what do you feel? are you happy? are you sad? are you hurt? or maybe feel disappointed? .. lots of feelings that we can't tell right ?
but believe me , maybe you don't notice .. in a second when you see them or remember them.. you will miss them though they must hurt you before .. 

like one of my friend said , " it's funny how someone can broke your heart, and you still love 'em with the little pieces. " my friend's statement is true .. how can ?? it shows us that we are stupid or a jackass of love ? sucks yea ..
but we just don't know what to choose .. either to stay or to leave .. 2 simple options but it is very hard to decide ..
For all ppl who feel the same thing like this .. maybe now , you can try to decide something's best for you .. just remember .. " SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO PUT YOURSELF FIRST THAN OTHER"

21 january 2009

Joanna Aoran